links

Saturday, October 29

incomplete

I PROMISE I WILL NEVER GO CLUBING AGAIN~!

Today was the second time in my life going to such place. Both times were as unfulfilling.

The first time i went was with jc, ce and jb. That was simply because jb got free tickets to go in to watch some S'pore idol stuff. Basically went there took the complimentry drink of orange juice and waited for the lucky draw, then we left the place. We told ourselves that such place doesn't meant for us. Smoky, dark, noisy, messy.....

This time was also another free ticket. It is for the blood donation promotion. Apparently, they are giving out free tickets to go club if one donates blood. In a way, using club to attract people going donation. Ganesha was the conveynor. I'm always a supporter of such things and ganesha was pulling me, hence i went with some of the people from my unit. The first half was bright and healthy. Quiz of blood donation were given to spread the knowledge of the blood donation system in singapore. Games were played as well, i of couse participated and won something. The problem comes upon the event ended and morph back into the CLUB mode. Everything changed so fast, the lighting, and smoking, and dancing. We got no change to flee.

People were dancing to the music. We joined in. One and a half hours past like that. The reason of me joining in was to understand why people are willing to waste $$ to go such places. After doing that, i still don't understand why people are willing to go such places just to have their so called dancing (mindless jumping of up and down, waving their hands).
That brings me back to the conversation i had with yc regarding playing computer games.....

my stand: playing game is a waste of time as it disrupt your social life, (unlike playing games like squash)
yc's stand: playing game is not a waste of time as it trains your mind and you can play with your friends as well.

I still remain on my stand as i really like to play sports with can be played with several other friends. Nevertheless, yc's stand is not wrong.
Perhaps there maybe other reasons why people go there is the first place.
Just that going to such shadowy place is just not my style, nature and personality. Too messy and noisy and smoky for me.... ...

|[ zofz | 2:28 AM ]|

Wednesday, October 26

playing games

It had been quite some time since i've 'chase' a game.
Been playing super mario and the legend of the seven stars for the past two days and of course i've completed it. This game has been in the comp for more than a yr. Downloaded by my brother and he purposely played it during my A level period to distract me , i think. After my A level, he had completed the game and that was completely forgotten until i was scanning through the old files last sunday.

Come to think of it, most of the very few games i've ever played were all bought or downloaded by my brother. Final Fantasy 7, harry potter games, war craft.... Personally, I feel that playing such games is just a waste of time, i don't think i can learn anything by jumping around, buying and selling items or gaining experience by fighting. Hence at times i really wonder why yc find it so satisfying after playing his game.

And i think that was the point of it all, to waste time.

Can still remember the time when i was in primary school, gameboy was a big Hoo Ha then. Almost 1 in 5 people brought it to school and played it during our free time. While 3 in 5 crowd around those who were playing, looking at the small screen, apparently enjoying themselves.
I never asked for a gameboy. I got no time to waste.

So much things to do, so little time.

|[ zofz | 11:00 PM ]|

Promise

Now on budget, the followings are my precautionary measures.

I promise i will never go to eat delifrance again.
I promise i will not go about spending and eating things that are so called interesting and unique
I promise i will not go to any "international" buffet again
I promise i will limit my everyday spending on food per day to be less then $8
I promise i will be a minser and stop donating $2 everytime i see people performing for $$.
I promise i will only watch movie during weekdays, much as possible at bedok cinema.
I promise i will stop buying stuff which i suddenly feel like buying it
I promise i will not travel so much to cut down on my travel expenses.
I promise i will not go shopping by myself anymore


With that, i think it should be enough to save at least $100 per month for my other stuff.... hopefully...

|[ zofz | 1:53 AM ]|

Sunday, October 23

tuition

Was giving ganesha chem, maths, physics tuition today. Two words : too late.

Can still remember at this time of last year, i was already doing other school's prelims papers, with most of my doubts cleared. For me, i was just in time to study at the minimum effort to get the minimum grades required for my uni course.

But for ganesha, he was still learning how to do differeniation (which was the bulk of today's lesson) , formulas for physics, the format for the papers, numerical solutions...

how how how? i don't know how to help him.
His physics prac was over last week, got no chance to help him. He had never done ANY phyics experiment for 6 yrs, hence cannot finish his graph. I'm more worried about his actual papers. I don't want him to fail that badly.

|[ zofz | 12:49 AM ]|

hazards in the house (appendix)

APPENDIX:

Fig 1A- glass bottle which landed on my left elbow

Fig 1B- wooden photo frame which i couldn't save and landed on the floor, frame was taken the other way round to protect the identity. Fig 1C- liquid density thermometer which was supported by my right arm

|[ zofz | 12:36 AM ]|

Friday, October 21

cross country x trophy

yeah~! ran for cross country today. Contributed to the team alot and got it to the 3rd place. Won a trophy back home. It was so exciting cos one of the people from our team had headache and another had his leg injured. Both of them were presumbly, like me, better runners in the team.
Lots of tactics were made by other teams, like putting blocks of 2-3 not so good runners to run very fast or very slow from time to time to disrupt the morale and the flow of the pacing.

Saw nantha, augustin, mingzhou and some acquaintance from soce. They were running the 5km fun run, but it seems to me that i was enjoying the most.

Come to think of it, it had been sometime since i've won a trophy or medal for myself. Recent years were just medal of completion or certificate. Can still rmb the glorious days when i had trophy for Chinese oratorical competiton, medals for table tennis and badminton competitions, etc. Its just so fun to have shiny stuff in the house.

|[ zofz | 2:20 PM ]|

Thursday, October 20

descendants of bp

--- ok, i've written something but del it two days after. Feel that the style was rather weird and not appropriate.

|[ zofz | 12:08 AM ]|

Wednesday, October 19

Deja vu and all over again

Last sunday.

Same place, same position, same comments coming out from me, same surrounding situation.

WK once said this deja vu feelings is due to some subconscious thoughts and stuff.
But at times i wonder if that is really the case hence, i had came up with a theory before that TIME does not goes straight in one direction, but is moving in a spiral way.
Perhaps the matrix did some changes to the system?

I don't know what am i talking about. I've heard rumours that there are people who were driven crazy cos they were thinking too much about the movie "matrix".

Don't feel like thinking about it now, so i'm leaving this post to remind me to think abt it later.

|[ zofz | 11:44 PM ]|

Saturday, October 15

Feelings right ready to go

I always said to my friends 'feelings right ready to go' (adapted from a song) and 'never hesitate, if not the snake will bite' (adapted from a movie). In short, when you feel like doing something, just do it. Do not waste time hesitating or procastinating.

Yesterday, got the urge to go ice skating and eat delifrance, and there i went.
Today, got the urge to play squash, and there! i bought a squash racket and played squash
Tomorrow, will be going to kayak.

Doing things i enjoy with my friends, a perfect week had just passed.

|[ zofz | 7:01 PM ]|

A Per fect Day

Bought her CD after the recommendation of jy. (actually its not recommendation lah, its cos my this offical dao ban shang refuse to sent me her's). Anyway, it turned out to be a little disappointing. Even Wj agreed that this new album is in pale with the one before and moments.

The main theme song for example. The first time i listen to the lyrics i was like -_-.
From the title, of cos we will expect 'a perfect day' is how we spent the day ie what we did and the events that happened. Instead, the songs was telling us how she wanted a big house with windows that allows the sunray to enter, hence warming her blanket. Then it continues saying how she want to have many rooms to put clothes, guitars, and to sleep, it ended of saying she don't know what to put in her many rooms.

That is like a 'want' thingy lor. That scene reminded me of the amyville house movie i watched last week. Its a horror movie about a big house, with many windows and rooms, similar to the one above....

then there comes what she do during her perfect day: 1) don't sleep at night 2) lying on the bed at day time 3) letting the dogs running about in the house.

Yah, its like yah. i'm not sleeping now, i'll be lying on my bed later. Just that i don't have a dog.

Seriously, if there is an edited version, it would be best if it can be changed to my previous posting, at least its not out of point...

haiz...

|[ zofz | 1:21 AM ]|

Sunday, October 9

A perfect day~! (added at 10pm)

Today is a perfect day.

8am. Got awakened by Ganesha sms. Telling me to go play table tennis with his brother later in the evening.

(when back to sleep after that)

9.20am. Got awakened by a phone call for my father.
9.30am Went down for breakfast when JB called (those he is having duty), telling me how good his buffet was with YC yesterday. Having a friend to call and say hi is surely a good start of the day.
9.40am Went to the kitchen, mother was preparing lancheon meat, cutting cucumbe and tomato for make bread sandwich. I was just in time for breakfast.
9.45am Sitting on the sofa eating tastly sandwich, drinking delicious milk.

10am-12pm. Was reading the newspaper and watching tv at the same time. Watched rockman, ghost movie, and chinese serial.

12-1pm Morphed into musician mode, and started playing the instrument i've sealed in the box for months. Very rusty at first but everything seemed to go on smoothly. Was so happy after recalling to play musics that i've kept for so long.

1pm Found a CO name list compiled when i was year 1 inside my score file. Tried my luck to find long lost co slacking friend, roy. Fortunately, his number is still the same. smsed each other for the next hr, sharing each other experience just like last time. While msg, went online and msn Brian, got him to go kayaking with me next week... i really love the water...

1.45pm Started writing this blog. To share this perfect day, or should i say half a day. Nonetheless, the next half of the day is promising as its 2pm now.

Today is a perfect day.

(added at 10pm)

The rest of the day was relax as forseen. Ate my lunch, listen to mother singing her new songs, cleared my wallet and took out the CD which i bought with yy weeks ago about astronomy.

All these were so mentally taxing and hard work. Took my usual afternoon nap and got awaken my JB sms. The second greetings for today. It was already evening.

Ate my dinner, went TT. came back refreshed~! Went online and chatted with my junior fan, nicolas and ym. Lastly blog.


notice i'm tying in a rush. no choice. need to go soon.
just another typical day of mine.

Its A Perfect Day.

|[ zofz | 1:41 PM ]|

Saturday, October 8

universe

"Absorb thyself in this great sea of the waters of life. Dive deep in it until thou hath got lost in it, and having lost thyself, then thou shalt find thyself again. Even as it is written, she had her dwelling in the great sea, as in a fish, therein. Holyph am I, for mine unfathomable will the universe hath its beginning. In my boundless wisdom are the types and patterns of all things."

Beginning to get use to the pace of life over here. Come to think of it, i was losing myself due to the monotonous pace. Was so restless that i couldn't help it but to court for trouble, yes during the past two weeks, i've raised my voice and either scolded or had an arguement with about 5 people, be it their fault or not.
Nevertheless, i've found myself again. Just as someone once said and i suddenly remembered "beyond earth, there is a solar system; beyond the solar system, there is a galaxy; beyond the galaxy there is a universe; ( and in the universe there are aliens). There entire universe is so big, why giving yourself trouble or making yourself miserable because of the things around? why don't we try to accept to learn about everything and everyone in this world?" (Certainly, some changes were made from the original words in terms of translation and meaning)

Yesterday unconsciously told someone of a belief that i've always said in the past "people who keep and like animals, and people who learn and play music instrument are all very kind hearted and have good temprement"
I used to said that in the past, but stopped doing so cos i've forgotten about it. I almost forgotten that i myself is a musician... ...

I've found myself again.

" even if the universe will burn out someday, even if my hands are tied up in chain ... ..."

|[ zofz | 7:20 PM ]|

Saturday, October 1

Please give me a surprise

Yesterday was the end of september. As the song goes "涔�������骞虫贰������锛�涓������藉ソ���娆�������", yes absolutely got into no trouble during the entire month. Nevertheless, things are getting monotonous these days, nothing seems to surprise me anymore. In simpler terms, boring.
As someone once edited "Curiousity does not kill the cat, boredorm does". I really cannot stand doing nothing, eventhough part of me was telling me its a good thing to slack.

Been calling up or msg friends to vent my frustrations, people like ym, bz, jy, ec, jb, jc, yc.... etc were all my targets. From their tone, i guess that they were all annoyed and irritated. But come to think of it, thats what friends are for, i don't think they would mind.... haha

Yesterday went out with alan for dinner. Kept on pastering him before meeting him to give me some surprises to end off the week or month. Ended up we went to popular, ate dinner and the library (he used my account to borrow book, date due 21st oct). We seperated at around 840pm. Just as i was thinking that the month will end just like that, i met yc at the bus stop where i was waiting for bus.

It was the first time yc and i met in cck. He seemed very tired and said that he just booked out. He added on saying that he do not have enough sleep during these few days. So we ended up complaining of the work we had done these few weeks. He complaining how hard of him being an instructor, and me complaining how monotonous my lifestyle was. All the while, i complaint in a jokingly manner which made him felt that i'm mocking him. I told him long time ago that there are always people who envy him, what i didn't tell him was that i'm one of them...
Because of him, i suddenly remembered that i've met jb and mr neo the day before and both were surprising encounters.

Deep down i know that this month of october will not be easy for me. And i will be expecting the unexpected. It will be fun.

��� 浣���������挎�� 灏辫�风��������������



ps: happy children's day~!!~

|[ zofz | 3:25 PM ]|