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Sunday, July 17

two things

1) came to 36th, mwo told me that the personalty test is very accurate upon me telling him that I made a choice going to 39th last week. he was hinting to me that my choice of coming back to 36th has already be calculated during the test itself. made me very curious and impress about such psychological test. rather jealous abt baozhen for being able to take psychology for uni. more determined in taking that course as a minor in uni.

2) i've once posted and mentioned that i used to cry alot, though it have been more then 10 yrs since l've last done so. today, Suddenly remembered that i cried once cos i dropped my 20 cents coin and was unable to buy my chocolate cake. Compared to today, i've spent 60 dollars on a meal without feeling anything other then full. Really not sure on how i should feel. Whether i should feel guilty on being such a spendthrift or happy because i'm financial independent. Maybe either ways i supposed.
This is one of the cases when yc is right when he say i always think too much. But, isn't it a good thing to think and learn more about yourself? ? what am i thinking.... ...

|[ zofz | 2:06 AM ]|

Sunday, July 10

so happy

Really enjoyed and had a great laugh today. So fun, so happy. A picture says a thousand words. So I will just post the pics instead of writing lengthy essay.

|[ zofz | 8:15 PM ]|

Friday, July 8

Everyday a surprise

Experienced and thought through serveral things within the past two days. Some of which need to be cross referenced with my previous posting.

1)Bats.
i've yet to type in the original moral of the story which is "He that is neither one thing nor the other has no friends". The story was trying to say that the bat should stick to one side. But why isn't it the case that actually the bat likes both sides and wants to be their friend, hence it can't bear to make a choice to whom to fight for? I feel sad for the bat. Just because it wants to be friends with both sides, it ended up it being indifferent from all the rest. Sad.

2)Choices
My PC gave me a surprised yesterday, perhaps to fit in to the special occasion. He told me once again that eod needs people and wanted me to reconsider my original choice of going cbrd. I've told Loyalle that if he told me that on other days, i may not have made the choice of switching back. Of course once again, I was caught in the middle and was very confused. I've always tell myself "when fates collide, no one has a chance". Certainly, there are many things that were running through my head at that time and i had to make a choice within 30 mins.
"the best things in life are always the things that you can never obtain" was what i said in my previous post.

I've read of a event in a story " A curious incident of a dog killed in midnight" (or something like that) and the event goes like that:

"there was a game show with 3 doors, A, B and C. within one of the doors it was the grand prize, whereas the other two was useless items. When one was told to choose a door (eg A), the host will open one of the door that is useless (eg C). Then the host told the partipant whether he wants to remind to his decision or to make a switch. Though it is thought by many that there is no diff, according to the book explaining probability, the chance of getting the correct door is higher if he made a switch."

Perhaps it was one of the reasons why i've did so.
I believe that my decision may result in others thinking that i'm a indecisive person. Maybe i am, considering that i've threw a coin to decide whether i'll be going nj or aj and to choose fm or bio as my subjects. But for this case, it is different. I've considered the different possibilities ie that if i remind in cbrd, who will be crossing over and stuff. I believe that my choice will be the best combination of people.

I'm not sure whether it is a coincidence that the song "my desired happiness" was played once again from my blog upon me coming to type this. Truely, I know from my heart that whatever i've chosen, i'll do my very best and be happy.

3) Oh dear~!
Seriously, i feel that the reason i'm such a positive person is because i am able to listen to my heart's voice and believe in what i think is right. Tonight, i was feeling slightly down. Those around me were unable to hear my voice, hence they did things totally different from what I have asked for. It made me having a sense of being betrayed and "i let my heart went insane". Starting to doubt the things i believed in.
I've been writing lyrics of a chinese song entitled "Listen to the Sound", and i wrote that it is not scary not to be able to see clearly, but it is so if we are unable to listen to the voices from our hearts. I hope i'll not make this same mistake again.

|[ zofz | 11:28 PM ]|

Wednesday, July 6

en guard~!

I believe that most of us have always wonder how the day will be during our birthday for every year. In particular, this year the birthday for chinese calender and westen is one day after another Well, this year was something that i've never expected. To be doing guard duty now with couple of strangers i've never talk and met before. Quite a different experience i would say.
It is least expected of me to be writing my blog in this place as well.
I really hope that tml will have nights out for if not, it will be the first time of me celebrating my birthday without my family. Nevertheless, i'm sure that they will postphone the celebration to another day. haha~


Happy birthday to me...



(hint hint to all who are reading this... heh heh..)

|[ zofz | 9:19 PM ]|

Friday, July 1

oh dear~!

Just read through my past postings and realised that most of the post during the past month were quite depressing. Surely, most people will tend to take note of the unhappy things happened and will overlook of the cheerful events.

Many friends in sispec told me that they find me to be a very positive, joyful person. Seriously, i always believe that the world is a fun and lovely place. No doubt at times anyone could have feel lost, and demoralised, or is it just me? But i'm sure it is just once in a blue moon.

Certainly, there are serveral fun and exciting events that happened during this month which i've yet to take down. To name a few, was the time we had nights off and went arcade at AMK, 6 people taking turns to play the drum set which each one in charge of one drum. Embarassed but memorable. Another one was the time i've been selected to be the PT i/c. Now almost everyone in the course know who i am, such a pity that i still don't know most of them. Its so fun to be popular and famous as always.

Sometimes, i really wonder why i'm wondering of those unhappy thoughts which made me moody whole day round. Its just so not me and against my value. Next week will be the most exciting week of soce, guard duty, cohesion night, birthday (hint hint). So many things around me, what more am i looking for? heh heh...

|[ zofz | 9:51 PM ]|

bats

During the whole of last month (june), the situation i was in reminded me of a story from Aesop's Fables i've read many years ago.

"A great conflict was about to come off between the Birds and the Beasts. When the two armies were collected together the Bat hesitated which to join.The Birds that passed his perch said:"Come with us"; but he said: "I am a Beast." Later on, some Beasts who were passing underneath him looked up and said: "Come with us"; but he said: "I am a Bird." Luckily at the last moment peace was made, and no battle took place, so the Bat came to the Birds and wished to join in the rejoicings, but they all turned against him and he had to fly away. He then went to the Beasts,but soon had to beat a retreat, or else they would have torn himto pieces."

Sometimes it was just so troublesome to be in the neutal side or to be with both sides. Fortunately, everything turned out well as always.

1 more week left to be in soce. Hope that the end over here will not be like in sispec.

|[ zofz | 8:35 PM ]|