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Sunday, September 25

mid Autumn.... memories

One week has passed since the mid autumn festival. The sky was so cloudy during that period that i never got the chance to see the full moon.

JB told me yesterday that he was beginning to forget his childhood memories. Guess it is the same to everyone i supposed.

Despite that, i still have the faintest memory i had on mid autumn festival and on my grandfather. I can still rmb that time on mid autumn when i was 3 or 4 yrs old ( couldn't be 5 cos he was dead then), my grandfather bought me a superman lantern (with purple hair which i know its not right). He was sitting on the swing beside my flat at toa payoh and i was flying that superman lantern around that swing.

During our kite flying session last yr, JB, Yc and JC asked me before, why was i so enthusiastic about that kite flying trip. I couldn't remember why then, but i was just very excited about it. Suddenly rmbed something before.

I always liked the feeling of having the wind blowing through my hair, towards the face. Though there is a slight sense of insecurity, there are also excitment and mysterious as well. I just like that feeling. I like to fly, not in an aeroplane, but in the wind.

That was why i wanted kites for my birthday when i was 4 yrs old (it was around tt time i knew the existence of kites). And of course, my grandfather bought me 4 kites, those normal rectangular shape, one of with i rmbed had a spiderman picture on it. We pinned it up on the wall as decoration during my birthday party. Was enjoying myself that i forgotten about those kites. Before i knew it, it was kept away and i didn't see it since.

It was many yrs past (7 to 9 yrs old then) when my family went to marina south for a bowling game. I pastered to go kite flying as soon as i heard that we can fly kite nearby. Though my father couldnt remember when i told him about it last yr, i can still remember that that was the first time i flew a kite and it was together with him. It was really hardwork i would say. The kite managed to fly, but eventually got trapped in a tree. Very sad then, just as i was getting the hang of it, such tregedy had to happen. But we still managed to keep that roll of string as a sovenior. That was why i really looked forward to the next kite flying session...

|[ zofz | 2:46 PM ]|

hazards in the house

Was trying to tidy up my room and found this 21km marathon finishing medal on my table.

Wanted to place it in that special compartment on the self when I realised it was a wrong move.

This special compartment is at the highest self slighly above my eye level, that is where i kept fragile items, delicate gifts from others, token of pleasant memories etc.

I was trying to balace the madal on the photo frame in the special compartment when the photo frame started falling forward. It knocked onto a small glass bottle with crystals inside, another photo frame and a liquid density thermometer which mother bought from holland. Everything just came falling down so fast that i don't know which one to save first. It was horrible. Eventually, the glass bottle with crystals landed on my left elbow joint with the joint cliping on it, the liquid density thermometer was supported by my right upper arm in an awkward angle to prevent it from rolling down. The other photo frame was wooden, so i subconsciously didn't save it.

Yes, i've saved all the fragile items. But another problem arises. That is that i'm stuck at that position, cos if i use my right hand to support the bottle on the left, the thermometer will roll down. And if i use my left hand to support the thermometer, my left elbow joint will not be able to clip on to the bottle and it will drop. It was so awkward as i've mentioned, the compartment was above the eye level.

I was trapped at that position for 1 min or so, thinking what will be my next move. Tried calling mother but the reply i got was the sound of her vacuum cleaner. Mother always like to use the vacuum in full blast, hence it create defending noise which drowns my call.

Ended up, i tipped toe and stand on my bed to give myself leverage. I've performed a circles balancing act to balance the bottle on my arm without cliping, so that my left hand is free to save the thermometer. Once secured, i once again, balanced the thermometer with my left finger so my right hand can hold on to the bottle... ...

What a dangerous day... ...

|[ zofz | 2:04 PM ]|

Sunday, September 18

Love (edited on 23/9/05)

haha~! its so unlike me to be so sentimental all of the sudden. Must be the full moon last week.

Hence, i've decided to start a secret blog to write about such sentimental stuff. Everything abt her. And i will not give that address to any one cos its a secret~!

:P

|[ zofz | 7:00 PM ]|

Saturday, September 17

Masquerade

"Masquerade, paper faces on parade. Masquerade, hide your face so the world will never find you"

This was the lyrics from Masquerade from The Phantom of the Opera. And it was one of the songs that has been running through my head throughout the whole of this year.

I used to hide my weaknesses, fearing that someone would use them against me. Because of that, to others I was strong and fearless. But i was not. Knew it from deep down my heart. That was the period of my life when i don't really trust others and willingly wanted to accept others.
At times, I hated myself for that. Trying to be someone i'm not.

Nonetheless, for the entire of this year, i did the direct opposite. I've showed and exaggerated serveral weaknesses. I'm glad i've did so. Cos by doing so, i was able to see the true nature of those around me. As i've mentioned in my previous post, i'm very particular when it comes to friends. No doubt, up till this point there is no way to know what i've been doing is the right thing or not, but all i know is that by doing so, i was able to know people even better and trust them evenmore.

Certainly, its truely irritating for the bystander to see me acting blur and stuff. For that i must apologise, i guess.

Masquerade, a tiring way of protecting oneself.
till the time of awakening comes... ... ...

|[ zofz | 12:59 AM ]|

Sunday, September 11

city hall

Went to city hall during these 2 days. And both are as eventful.

sat: met up with darmend and nantha to eat indian fastfood. That was my second time after 5 yrs since i've last eaten such food. Masala thosai, exactly the same meal i've eaten before. Relearnt alot on how to eat those stuff. Nantha shared with us his drama in sispec while darmend told us his adventure in taiwan. Certainly, they have learnt alot.

walked out of the resturant and withness the accident of the bus colliding with a car. The car suddenly stopped and the bus driver just horned instead of pressing the brakes. As i always say, things tend to break easily with me around. Theres a force that is with me...


sun: half marathon. ran 21 km for the first time. Initially thought that it will be an easy one, just running. I was wrong. My underestimation of such a run resulted me in running too fast for the first 10 km, ended up me struggling for the last 5 km. That was my first time experiencing leg cramp. Fortunately the cramp during my run was not as servere as the post-run, else i don't think i can have my finisher medal. The cramp was so servere that i got YK to help me massage. A light touch from him was so painful that i was practically squeezing his arm in protest.

The last 5 km was quite interesting as the one running beside me was a commanding officer (not sure its wise to say who) I realised that he was indeed a friendly and encouraging person as he was motivating me during my struggle. We thank each other for the accompany at the end.

All in all, ran 21km in 2 hrs 9 mins. not sure if its a very good time or not. But i'm really happy that i manage to complete the run and got the medal.... i'm so good... haha

|[ zofz | 4:46 PM ]|

Friday, September 9

difference

wed went to tampines S11 to eat. It was only i sat down when i suddenly rmbed that i've been there and eat there before, last year to be specific. It was after our As when Jc, Ce and i went to pulau ubin for biking and to have an outfield picnic, we ended our day by having our dinner at that S11. That was why i decided to eat the same noodles last wed.

Strangely, the exact noodles i ate was not as tastely as it was the first time. The taste was different and the quantity was much lesser. I really wondered if their customer service was degrading or was it just me.... ...

I just realize that i'm a very choosy person, especially when it comes to knowing friends. When there is someone i dont like, i don't even bothered to talk to him or her, or even reply them. On the contrary, if there are people who i feel comfortable with, i can talk till they drop.... That is why i always feel that my friends should be very honored to be my friend cos they are specifically selected and chosen. Notice the difference?

As i always said, we can never be stingy when it comes to food. You are what u eat. Eating the right stuff can give you the energy needed throughout your day. And most importantly, u must never rush your meals. This is because we will not be able to enjoy the meal fully if we eat too fast. That was why at times i don't really like eating in the army cook house, u cant get what u feel like eating and can never take your own time to eat. i really pity those fast eaters and vegetarians.

|[ zofz | 11:19 PM ]|

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