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Friday, May 27

so far so good... ... ?

it had been quite a few weeks since i've blog. Seriously, many things have happened during these 3 weeks that bogged me down. Most of which really cause me to degrade myself and led me in becoming a person whom i always resented. First and formost was the sect com bag incident which really become a less trusting person and made me wonder what dignity is. It is very heartbreaking to know that there are people who actually pull others down just to get away from their own trouble. Or are all humans so?

Secondly was my handphone incident. It is a matter of pride for me to know that someone could steal from me. I am always a very careful person when it comes to security of my belongings, yet someone managed to steal from me. Thumbs up to whoever it was. Maybe it is about time for me to change my phone. I know i'll not change it if not for that because it is my first phone. Its just very troublesome for me to recover the lost numbers...

Nonetheless, these three weeks were really exciting. Especially the nutcracker when me and darmend had close encounter with the jesmine smell thingy. Nantha later told us that there was something lurking around during the first night. Apparantly, the time fits in well. darmend was 7-8 when we were digging th shellscrape while mine was 9-10 when we were starting to dig the trench. According to nantha, it was travelling in that direction...


I came to realise that there were quite a number of us who cried during our days in sispec. don't feel like naming them for its not really nice though i think that they wouldn't mind. Theres nothing wrong in crying afterall. From what i observed, those who cried were able to think even more wisely. Those who hold back their tears, they are will live in a lie for they actually lying to their own feelings. Come to think of it, i've not cry for many years probably paying off the debt for crying so much before. Am i lying to my own feelings, or has my heart hardened or i'm strong so there issant a need for me to cry or i just don't want others to know my weakness? For this i myself do not know. At times, i really want to tell myself that it is alright to cry now... ...

|[ zofz | 10:44 AM ]|

Monday, May 2

freedom

Have been doing alot of thinking during these few days of off and due. Its always the problem that either i think too much or don't think at all.
The only way to sort out the thoughts was using words and soon i was actually writting lyrics with those ideas... One of these days i'll start composing some songs, i've been wanting to do so but no time to do so.... really.

Met up with friends. Though it was the same thing over and over again, i can never get bored. I actually find it fun and was delighted just being able to walk with people I am comfortable with. Freedom.

|[ zofz | 1:49 AM ]|