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Thursday, December 15

depression vs middle child sydrome

Was chatting about the topic on depression with jy last sun. We wouldn't have go into that topic if i wasnt trying to be funny by typing the words from the advertisement "do you feel like crying all the time, do you have the thought of commiting sucide, do u that there is no hope..."upon somethings she said.

All these while i thought that the advert are just means to get people panicky so people will consult the psycho people and they in turn earn $$. But just because i don't know anyone who suffers from this doesn't mean it is a hoax. If we never had discuss abt that topic, i would never know that there are people i've met that are suffering from it.

'Feeling stressed and frustrated are the main causes of depression,' according to NTU undergraduate jy who is trying her very best to major in psycho.
For me, when i'm stressed and frustrated (which is rather rare i supposed), i'll just find a way to make me not stress and frustrated lor. Isn't that easy? If its about thinking meaningless complicating stuff, then stop thinking about it, just think simple. If feeling frustrated, just find something to vent it away...
Perhaps it is just me being born luckier. There are people living in problems which they can no solve. But then, who doesn't have problem? So its not fair to blame on others being lucky.

If the syptoms of depression is having thought of sucide, i must admit i might have depression before. That was like lower primary i think. Its normaly due to quarrel among siblings, unfair judgement from the parents...etc etc
When involve arguement with my sister, everytime (i think) my parents will intervene by saying my "sister is elder and is a girl so must listen to her"
When involve in arguement with my brother, intervention happened by saying my 'brother is younger, so just give way to him and let him be'
Unfair right? And there was nothing i can do about it. It felt as though the entire world was against you. The thought of sucide came in... yah, making everybody else feel guilty after my death. I believed the middle child sydrome which alice teo said has something to do with it. Nonetheless the thought is no more when i was able to handle the situation.

Alan said before, it is the situation that we are in that changed our personality and attitude on things. Certainly, the experience resulted me to think and behave in a unique manner. Perhaps this experience saved me in a way and making me mentally stronger as well ba...

Many things in mind. Really dont know how to phrase it out. Till i sort out my thoughts...

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