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Thursday, August 24

goodbye 2

Been thinking quite alot of the things that is happening to the people around me. Got quite alot of feelings during the past few days and it is overflowing for i got nowhere to vent on. For some reasons the internet in camp got problem.

1) rmb i mentioned in the previous post tt someone's father just died like last sat? i visited the wake and stuff. The funeral was yesterday. Just as everybody thought things will settle down and everything will be in place, his mother suddenly fainted and died.

This is something which i always feared. Its like everything in ur perfect life go haywire, out of ur control and you are just so weak and helpless to do anything.

Many started collecting money. I'm one of the few who doesn't. I really wonder if i am doing the right thing, there are many who has been asking me why. i just replied that i don't feel like giving, no reason....

If my $5-10 worth of contributions will make him less miserable, maybe i think i'll give. But then, my money is doesn't help anything, its just to show that i care in a more convenient manner. If thats the case, i would rather go down personally myself.... something along this line lah...

Think i mentioned it before that its so funny that for chinese, happy things like weddings and 1 month celebrations are often celebrated in a close environement, normally at night. As if its something shameful. Where as funeral like this are made so elaborated, as if its something to tell the entire world abt as if its something joyous...

2) ganesha has left singapore last sunday. I met him for the last time.
What impressed me more was his malay girlfriend who was along side with him.

I rmbed it was months ago when i was his very close consultant. He was telling me abt he would be going to overseas soon, his parents are against relationship due to religion. He was lost. "why starting a relationship when we knows it will be ending soon, and even the parents are against it?"

I was the one who advice him to go with it. WC and i made the act of me purposely pretending to be drunk (eventhough the next day is a live firing) to proof that his irresponsible action has the price to pay and it doesnt have to be yourself but those around you. That was why i made myself look so miserable to prove the point.

Ended up during the birthday party, he told everyone. "Eventhough they know such relationship doesn't last long and its against religion..etc etc... they still continue with it. She will have an impt place in his heart, will be someone impt. Though they don't know what will happen in the future but they knew at last they had a good experience together before..."

all these with a span of few months. Exactly what i've adviced him, to go on with it and not to drag...

3) just got home hrs ago. Called pizza delivery and order $57 worth of pizza, using mothers visa. "help me sign" she said, wasn't able to get down the stairs.

I signed... ...

|[ zofz | 11:42 AM ]|