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Saturday, July 8

Took the first step

Got a lift via father's car this morning. For many years, unless there are other people, i would always be sitting at my usual seat at the rear right. For me, the image i have of him is always like this:










The only time i've sat beside him this year was during the time wk and yk took a lift in the car. I had no choice but to do so.

This morning, it is different. I sat beside him. To many i think you would be wondering what am i talking abt, its just sitting beside him only mah... but trust me, it took quite alot of courage for me to do so.

And off we went.

The journey was the most difficult part. Never in my life i hesitated so much in that situation to speak. For the next 15 mins i was thinking how do i start. The awkward silence was deafening. Deep inside me i was laughing. you can speak so freely with strangers and friends, yet you are like that to him....you are weird...are you going to say it or not?

My heart was going to explode

It was during the last 5 mins of the journey that i picked up all my courage and told him something, something about myself that he never knew about. I was surprised that i at last spoke to him.

The first step is always the hardest. I'm glad i did it today. I don't think i'll find the courage ever again if i gave up during the first day.

Went out to eat breeks with yc and jb. One word: fabulous!
Why am i so lucky to have them as friends.
They are the only two people i will never get them involve in my plans. I will not forgive myself if i ever do so. They are really too impt to me.
ITs not that my plans are bad or something, its just that my plan involves $$, large amount of it. All good relationships never involves $$. In any case if my plan backfired, at least i dont get them implicated.

Night was the most crucial. Its the execution for the impt decision i've made. There is no turning back back nor room for regret.
Its the first step to a dream in the reality... ...

|[ zofz | 10:13 PM ]|