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Gliding through with eternal flame, who will keep it sane? Rooted on the ground, watching over all year round

Very tenacious and danger prone person, don't come near me, will pull you down or unfortunate events will befall, whichever is earlier.

I know what i want, has my own set of rules and tend to think 3 steps ahead. checkmate!

People say that i think simple, thats what i want them to think or perhaps whats what i am. Things tend to be simple when u have your own rules and mindset, don't you think so?

I like to get things done, and believe that the best way to do so is to do it by yourself. I only believe myself.

I perfer to think problems I encountered as a kind of game or performance, with me being the spectator asking both the players, 'what will you do?'. Things are much easier to solve if you are not involved, and the process is much more enjoyable, doesn't it?

Like maths, hate politics. Maths is the only thing that seems logical nowadays. Somesay politics is a kind of maths, mathematically speaking.

I only hesitate when i'm uncertain of being able to complete the task perfectly. And in a way, creating more problems by not trying. That is something i'm working on, hopefully.

I only hang around with people i feel comfortable with, and will not even talk to those otherwise... unless it is necessary for me to achieve my goals that is.

Someone once said,'curiosity doesn't kill the cat, boredom will'. Thats why when i feel like doing something, i'll do it, in my own pace that is.

Live dangerously with me... ...

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Saturday, February 4

Loud music

Went for some security things few hrs ago. We were waiting for the event to end so i took out my mp3 player (free gift from safra * join for 6 yrs for just $112) to listen. Certainly as a friendly person, i offered yk to listen with me as well.

yk was taken aback as soon as i started playing the music as it was too loud for him. I suddenly realised what i had been doing subconsciously for the past few days. Playing those music louder and louder each passing day.

Actually it started during the period i was disgusted about myself, my mind was confused and i couldn't listen to what my heart was screaming to say. I put on the ear piece to hear the music to distract myself i suppose. Soon i played it louder and louder to the extent i couldn't hear what is happening around me. It was at that moment my world seemed to be ironically peaceful. It was as though the world ceased to exist, leaving only me and the music.
Been listening to full blast music for the past few days already.

Nevertheless, i know its not good for my ears. So i'm typing this down to remind myself not to be so silly again. Harming myself so that i can have a moment of peace. silly me.

yk is just like the bell... that will be my next entry..

|[ zofz | 12:37 AM ]|