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Friday, July 8

Everyday a surprise

Experienced and thought through serveral things within the past two days. Some of which need to be cross referenced with my previous posting.

1)Bats.
i've yet to type in the original moral of the story which is "He that is neither one thing nor the other has no friends". The story was trying to say that the bat should stick to one side. But why isn't it the case that actually the bat likes both sides and wants to be their friend, hence it can't bear to make a choice to whom to fight for? I feel sad for the bat. Just because it wants to be friends with both sides, it ended up it being indifferent from all the rest. Sad.

2)Choices
My PC gave me a surprised yesterday, perhaps to fit in to the special occasion. He told me once again that eod needs people and wanted me to reconsider my original choice of going cbrd. I've told Loyalle that if he told me that on other days, i may not have made the choice of switching back. Of course once again, I was caught in the middle and was very confused. I've always tell myself "when fates collide, no one has a chance". Certainly, there are many things that were running through my head at that time and i had to make a choice within 30 mins.
"the best things in life are always the things that you can never obtain" was what i said in my previous post.

I've read of a event in a story " A curious incident of a dog killed in midnight" (or something like that) and the event goes like that:

"there was a game show with 3 doors, A, B and C. within one of the doors it was the grand prize, whereas the other two was useless items. When one was told to choose a door (eg A), the host will open one of the door that is useless (eg C). Then the host told the partipant whether he wants to remind to his decision or to make a switch. Though it is thought by many that there is no diff, according to the book explaining probability, the chance of getting the correct door is higher if he made a switch."

Perhaps it was one of the reasons why i've did so.
I believe that my decision may result in others thinking that i'm a indecisive person. Maybe i am, considering that i've threw a coin to decide whether i'll be going nj or aj and to choose fm or bio as my subjects. But for this case, it is different. I've considered the different possibilities ie that if i remind in cbrd, who will be crossing over and stuff. I believe that my choice will be the best combination of people.

I'm not sure whether it is a coincidence that the song "my desired happiness" was played once again from my blog upon me coming to type this. Truely, I know from my heart that whatever i've chosen, i'll do my very best and be happy.

3) Oh dear~!
Seriously, i feel that the reason i'm such a positive person is because i am able to listen to my heart's voice and believe in what i think is right. Tonight, i was feeling slightly down. Those around me were unable to hear my voice, hence they did things totally different from what I have asked for. It made me having a sense of being betrayed and "i let my heart went insane". Starting to doubt the things i believed in.
I've been writing lyrics of a chinese song entitled "Listen to the Sound", and i wrote that it is not scary not to be able to see clearly, but it is so if we are unable to listen to the voices from our hearts. I hope i'll not make this same mistake again.

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