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Sunday, April 17

house and man

Almost being knocked down by a car again today.
Come to think of it, i have been knocked over by a car 3 times and was almost being crashed 5 times. Nothing serious happened fortunately. Life is very fragile i should say and i feel that the chance of me dying on the road is very high.
That was one of the reasons I dont looking forward to have a driving license or to have a car, unlike my peers.

For most of my life, car and house always haunt me. They never failed to give me bad memories. Accidents, problems, incidence , unhappiness. Cars and houses are so troublesome but are necessities upon growing up. And grown up will be responsible for such stuff. That was why i don;t feel like growing up for quite a few years already. Probably because of this, I become someone who is very unreliable and immature. shouldering responsibilities and being reliable are signs of growing up. As what Mr yee said, I always try to escape from my problems. Simply to say, I have no courage to face them, similar to my gp..

People say that it is the situation that force you to grow up. In all my fantasy, I'll always be stuck at the same age. Maybe it is due to this, my personality sometimes splits. At times, I am reliable, smart, arrogant and responsible but sometimes it is the other way round, being nervous, careless and stuff. Nevertheless, at times when the situation is too much for me or when i'm very tired, i'll lost myself and start to stone between the two extremes. At that point, i'll be acting weird. Perhaps it is about time for me to move on. Once my book is completed within these 2 yrs, a second stage will be made. Like is so unpredictable...

|[ zofz | 12:39 AM ]|