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Gliding through with eternal flame, who will keep it sane? Rooted on the ground, watching over all year round

Very tenacious and danger prone person, don't come near me, will pull you down or unfortunate events will befall, whichever is earlier.

I know what i want, has my own set of rules and tend to think 3 steps ahead. checkmate!

People say that i think simple, thats what i want them to think or perhaps whats what i am. Things tend to be simple when u have your own rules and mindset, don't you think so?

I like to get things done, and believe that the best way to do so is to do it by yourself. I only believe myself.

I perfer to think problems I encountered as a kind of game or performance, with me being the spectator asking both the players, 'what will you do?'. Things are much easier to solve if you are not involved, and the process is much more enjoyable, doesn't it?

Like maths, hate politics. Maths is the only thing that seems logical nowadays. Somesay politics is a kind of maths, mathematically speaking.

I only hesitate when i'm uncertain of being able to complete the task perfectly. And in a way, creating more problems by not trying. That is something i'm working on, hopefully.

I only hang around with people i feel comfortable with, and will not even talk to those otherwise... unless it is necessary for me to achieve my goals that is.

Someone once said,'curiosity doesn't kill the cat, boredom will'. Thats why when i feel like doing something, i'll do it, in my own pace that is.

Live dangerously with me... ...

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Monday, September 25

will not let anyone to spoil my day!

Everything went terribly wrong today!

Several things happened which made me disgusted. Moreover, i got a splitting headache since yeseterday which made things worst.

It made me very very grumpy from the start of my day at 6am. Not many would have realised that cos i always forced out a smile.
Its something i've promised myself, no matter what horrible things that falls upon me, i'll face it with a smile. I'll not let anyone or thing spoil my day!

Normally, i can get through such difficult period without any problem. Nonetheless, with both physical and mental problems combine even super human like me will have some setbacks. More problem arises when i wasn't able to think clearly due to my original problem. Poor weixiang has to repeat things again and again just for me, (yet in the end i didn't settle the things for him though i keep on saying no problem) and he tot i'm making fun of him cos i looked ok and good.

The only person who really made my day was during the afternoon when the first person who really noticed that i'm different.
The storeman, guankheng. He is just an aquaintance i got to know in my unit. Yet, during my few mins of going there to exchange for new bedsheets, he asked me if i'm ok!

i look that bad meh? i replied, putting up a strong front.
you just look different from your normal self since this morning he said
dunno leh, depression ba. having thoughts of sucide, feel like crying all the time.i crapped

Then just as i took my bedsheets and leave, he told me to be spirited again!
I gave a very tired smile and said,'let me to be depress for today, tml i'll go back normal ok! haha"

I really want to thank him.

I left camp afterthat, actually wanted to go home to sleep. But in the end met up with wc and tried the alcohol therapy-- Mother's secret to good health.

As far as i'm concern, it really does help in headache and some sickness. But drinking it after an operation? when will she ever learn..

My physical problem shld be ok after a good night's rest. All that is left should be ok.

|[ zofz | 11:06 PM ]|