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Gliding through with eternal flame, who will keep it sane? Rooted on the ground, watching over all year round

Very tenacious and danger prone person, don't come near me, will pull you down or unfortunate events will befall, whichever is earlier.

I know what i want, has my own set of rules and tend to think 3 steps ahead. checkmate!

People say that i think simple, thats what i want them to think or perhaps whats what i am. Things tend to be simple when u have your own rules and mindset, don't you think so?

I like to get things done, and believe that the best way to do so is to do it by yourself. I only believe myself.

I perfer to think problems I encountered as a kind of game or performance, with me being the spectator asking both the players, 'what will you do?'. Things are much easier to solve if you are not involved, and the process is much more enjoyable, doesn't it?

Like maths, hate politics. Maths is the only thing that seems logical nowadays. Somesay politics is a kind of maths, mathematically speaking.

I only hesitate when i'm uncertain of being able to complete the task perfectly. And in a way, creating more problems by not trying. That is something i'm working on, hopefully.

I only hang around with people i feel comfortable with, and will not even talk to those otherwise... unless it is necessary for me to achieve my goals that is.

Someone once said,'curiosity doesn't kill the cat, boredom will'. Thats why when i feel like doing something, i'll do it, in my own pace that is.

Live dangerously with me... ...

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Saturday, September 17

Masquerade

"Masquerade, paper faces on parade. Masquerade, hide your face so the world will never find you"

This was the lyrics from Masquerade from The Phantom of the Opera. And it was one of the songs that has been running through my head throughout the whole of this year.

I used to hide my weaknesses, fearing that someone would use them against me. Because of that, to others I was strong and fearless. But i was not. Knew it from deep down my heart. That was the period of my life when i don't really trust others and willingly wanted to accept others.
At times, I hated myself for that. Trying to be someone i'm not.

Nonetheless, for the entire of this year, i did the direct opposite. I've showed and exaggerated serveral weaknesses. I'm glad i've did so. Cos by doing so, i was able to see the true nature of those around me. As i've mentioned in my previous post, i'm very particular when it comes to friends. No doubt, up till this point there is no way to know what i've been doing is the right thing or not, but all i know is that by doing so, i was able to know people even better and trust them evenmore.

Certainly, its truely irritating for the bystander to see me acting blur and stuff. For that i must apologise, i guess.

Masquerade, a tiring way of protecting oneself.
till the time of awakening comes... ... ...

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